Blog Tour: Forever Innocent by Deanna Roy

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Forever Innocent
By:  Deanna Roy
Published:  Sept. 26, 2013
Source:  Author
Hosted By:  Xpresso Tours


GR's Summary:

"Our baby died on prom night, and nothing was ever the same again."

Corabelle doesn’t feel like any of the other college girls. On what should have been one of the happiest nights of her life, she and her boyfriend Gavin watched a nurse disconnect the ventilator from their seven-day-old baby. During the funeral two days later, Gavin walked out and never returned.

Since then, her life has been a spiral of disasters. The only thing that has helped is her ability to black out whenever the pain gets too hard to bear, a habit that has become an addiction.

When Gavin shows up in her astronomy class four years later, he is hell-bent on getting her back, insisting she forgive him. Corabelle knows she can’t resist the touch that fills the empty ache that has haunted her since he left. But if he learns what she has done, if he follows the trail back through her past, her secrets will destroy their love completely. And once again, she’ll lose the only person who always believed she was innocent.

New Adult Contemporary Romance

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My Take on this Journey:

Corabelle left New Mexico 4 years after her 7 day old baby boy, Finn, was taken off the ventilator in the hospital on prom night, and her and her boyfriend, Gavin, were never the same again.  Her boyfriend walked out after the funeral and she was left to deal with their loss alone, which left her devastated.  Corabelle got into trouble at her first college and had to leave.  So she headed for UCSD to start fresh.  On one fateful day, in Astronomy class, she looked up and saw Gavin's name on the roster.  She thought that it couldn't possibly be true, but as she looked around the room, Gavin was doing the same and they were both shocked to see the other.  

Corabelle and Gavin were childhood friends and eventually started a relationship.
They thought they were soul mates.  Corabelle didn't understand why Gavin left.  There was a lot of anger, bitterness, guilt on both sides for possible culpability, and unresolved pain between these two characters.  All understandable.  Corabelle always worried that someone would find out the secrets of her past, so she developed a coping mechanism to deal with her fears, black outs.  Both Corabelle and Gavin garnished so much pain, sadness, guilt, emptiness, and secrets.  They were two very broken young people looking for something to deal with their heart wrenching loss, but looking in all the wrong places for answers.

These two characters had a very complicated past together and were both running, but getting no closer to an understanding of what happened, and never realizing they weren't at fault, and that there was nothing either could have done to have changed the outcome.  Their relationship faltered when their baby boy died, maybe because of their age, maybe not.  Gavin yearned for nothingness; no complications, no relationships, just meaningless sex with prostitutes.  He became a drifter, harboring the loss of Finn, struggling with what was left of the reality of what had become his life.  I am not going into too much detail with actual incidences in the book because of spoilers.  

Ms. Roy has created the most terrifyingly, all encompassing, tormenting, loss a parent could ever imagine.  The reader is drawn into the heart break, sadness, and  the totally devastating loss of these two young kids.  Only a parent who has lost their child could thoroughly understand the deafening silence between themself and their partner when faced with such a loss.  These two dealt, (or really didn't) with their tragic loss, each in different ways.  

This was an emotionally charged roller coaster ride that will rip the readers heart out.  Ms. Roy did an amazing job.  I could relate with this book on several levels.  Watching as my own family fell apart in the sweep of devastation that followed after the death of my beloved sister at the age of 24, and the loss of my child in pregnancy, and then again the moment to moment death and revival of my eldest daughter in a twist of fate.  The pain never goes away, and it always feels like it was just yesterday, no matter how much time has passed.  It changes you forever.  Ms. Roy woke up all those demons in me through this novel, to the end of this book.  She leaves this segment open ended with hope for a future in the sequel, Forever Loved, coming soon.

I give Forever Innocent, by Deanna Roy, 4 Tragic, Sad, Lost-Love Found, New Beginning Stars!

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About the Author:

Deanna Roy is a sucker for romance and drama and dumps hefty amounts of both in her novels. She is also a powerful advocate for baby loss moms and has founded multiple support groups for women, from teens on up, who endure this impossible heartache. Her other novels include Baby Dust and Stella & Dane: A Honky Tonk Romance.

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